My last few posts have been about my mother and they have been heart wrenching and difficult to write. But, now I would like to focus on healing my wounded heart and getting back to the me who enjoys the sunshine, being outside, always has a smile on her face and is never hesitant to get involved and help someone else. I haven’t been that person in quite awhile. I do not handle death well. I love my mother and miss her but today is about healing and beginning anew.

I have spent the last six months in the dark, not wanting to leave home, go to church, go to work, see my friends, etc…. These days have been long and lonely, but now I am ready to get back to my old self. I am ready to embrace the life I used to have. I want to enjoy my new marriage and the wonderful man who is my husband.  This has been a huge setback for me, but for those who have been through a significant loss, this is no surprise.

I am going to call the shelter my mother held so dear to her heart this week and see if they will have me. I am going to try to fill the shoes my mother left vacant at the shelter and see if I can try to make a difference to those women and children. I am going to continue the purpose of this blog, which is making a difference for those that have suffered at the hands of those they have loved. That is where I will find my strength and my healing. Thank you for bearing with me through this dark and difficult time. My next posts are happy ones and I am looking forward to them. Thank you to all of my friends on @twitter for their support and kindness, and thank you to all of my church friends for their guidance and support as well. May God bless you all.

thegeekwife